Countless attempts at Blogger have obviously failed miserably, so I've decided to move on to greener pastures. You can visit me now at yeezhiwei.wordpress.com to continue stalking me. There won't be much of recounts there though, just emotional garbage.

Ever since I decided to start running for exco, I've been asking myself whether I'll be the right man for the job. Sure, as anyone would be, I was confident and excited at first, but after seeing what I had to go through and the demanding tasks involved, a speck of doubt was added day after day. Today, it finally reached breaking point and I had to seriously ask myself, is this the right choice?

Vice President. Sounds menacing doesn't it? It certainly is, with heavy administrative work and with teachers hunting you down for every little thing, it is no easy post. Joan makes it look like a piece of cake, especially with her OCD personality, it suits her well. However, if I were to fill her shoes, man, those are big shoes to fill. At first, I thought I could handle the administrative work, but attendance itself was really a chore. For the first time, I couldn't enjoy band the way I used to, having the time to warm up with my instrument as I pleased. Coming early on Fridays will be especially hellish considering my horrendous sleep pattern.

Today, I had a good hard time thinking about things and I came to 2 conclusions:

I should withdraw. I had my doubts, but after looking at Darric, Shaun, Rochelle and Cheng Yu, I'm sure my loss won't mean much. I'm sure either Darric or Shaun would make a great Pres, and the other 2 are by no means unqualified either. None complained as much as me, nor felt the amount of stress I did doing the job, at least they look like they don't. Also, coping is another thing which I was worried about. JC is a whole different ball game. Gone are the times when the freedom of secondary schools allowed for the random siesta or wasting your time away with friends. Every precious moment counts and I think, as a VP, I wouldn't be using it very well.

I can contribute more to other things. Being in the publicity committee helped me realise this. Brainstorming and thinking of poster designs, to doing a mock up which the teachers liked really made me feel good, and the best thing was I enjoyed it. And today really confirmed that suspicion when I helped out with the banner committee, that my art could really people laugh, joke and was a great way to express myself. Whipping up the birthday cards for Daryl and Darric burned away 1 hour of my time, which could have been used for mugging but it seemed so timeless that so much time went by without me noticing. Sure, I may not be the best at art, nor am I a great designer by any means, but I'll probably enjoy doing it more than attendance-taking anyway.

Being a section leader was also always my dream ever since sec 1, but that dream has eluded me for the past 4+ years and sometimes, I really forget what I want. What was my purpose for running for exco anyway? Was it for status, or was it just for fun? I really forget but after reminiscing about how much that SL post meant to me, the whole exco thing seemed like a trivial matter. Would I be more committed to the whole band, or my wonderful section? It's pretty obvious, isn't it?

Well, hopefully my choice pulls through. Nothing would hurt my friends, family and ultimately, me more than suffering for the next year because of one wrong choice that boded a wrong outcome. I believe this is the better path, and lastly, did this really warrant a full essay?

Daniel

612 words for goodness sake.

Just a random thought.

I seem to have a very high tolerance threshold before I start to get even the tiniest bit angry. I just get nervous or worried most of the time, or if it's a more suitable word, I would say 'stress'. Well, it has helped me remain calm in certain situations and allowed me to analyse what's going on as well as to look up to God for guidance. That way, I can leave my worries behind as well. Such a blessing to be a Christian and I be bestowed with such a personality. What else to do but to praise the Lord?

Daniel

This is so not working out. I'm thoroughly pissed at my attitude towards how I go about doing things. I frequent facebook too much, tweet too much and just bloody youtube is freaking distracting me! Such a thing called 'focus' doesn't even seem to exist now. I admit, I'm the one at fault here, but things are just getting out of hand. Lagging behind in work is nothing new to me, but it has never gotten to this extent and I think this is a pretty big wake-up call.

From tomorrow onwards, I'll be more serious about what I set out to do. I keep doing a target list for each week but it only gets half-done each time. Occasional checks to social media, but no more. Nothing will stop me from aiming for A's for mid-yrs, as impossible as it sounds. Reality check: 2 days to PI submission, 5 days to exco interview, band poster, script, shirt, tutorials, lectures. I pray to God that it will really works out. No pain, no gain. This is no longer secondary school, Daniel. Wake the hell up.

As you know, I had sorta let the blog die again. Well, I guess I'd rather post often with short posts rather than set the standards up so high and never get to them.

Well, it's been really stressful lately. PI submission is in 3 days. It's been busy for band, especially since I'm an exco applicant and there's a lot of sai kang work to be done like publicity and posters. Some more there's our batch's band tee design which I'll probably be the one collating and doing up so yeah. The pieces are awesome though.

VJCSB is having our Limelight 2012 concert at the Esplanade Concert Hall on 29 May at 7:30pm. Tickets are at $11 for students. I'm really hoping I meet the ticket sales quota, there's so many people who can't make it during that time period. Hope most of my friends can make it too :) I'll be announcing to my class tmrw as well, so hope I get as much support as possible. It'll feel great to perform to a full house! (or close to)

Tests tests tests. That's what it's all about. Math lecture test tmrw and Biomolecules test on Thu. If thing's weren't even bad enough, I'm lagging behind a lot in my studies. Hopefully all will go well. I pray for my well-being and that everyone involved will be able to cope :)

Alright, that's all from me. Have a great week :)

Daniel

Aw man, it's been a super long while since I last posted, and the blog is now super outdated :(

Sorry guys, JC life has been getting much much more hectic these few days or weeks. Ever since CCAs and other external stuff started popping up, I'm realising how important it is to manage time well, as without those skills, it'll be close to impossible to cope with school, especially with my schedule.

So, if I don't post, feel free to pester me and I'll try to satisfy. However, do understand that when I don't post, it's one of the following reasons:

Homework (duh)
CCA commitments (Symphonic Band and Earthwatch)
Alumni band performance for VS
Biology Olympiad training and studying

Yeah, these four things are really making things hectic and racking up a lot of stress, and the commitments are starting to make me crumble and fall behind in academics.

Went out with Marcus, Derek, Benedict and Khairul today to celebrate Benedict's and Derek's birthdays as well as to just hang out with old buds. Though there wasn't much on the itinerary, the kinect experience was pretty darn awesome as we freaking danced our asses off for 2.5h! Hanging out with these people are indeed the best, as well as band friends, and I really hope we can really get together more despite our hectic schedules.

Well, it's time again to hit the books, pen and paper :( holidays are coming, but so what? No longer are holidays the carefree days we once knew, but are now deemed as having the "freedom" to be more productive. All these translate to one phrase: Welcome to Society.

Daniel

I'm currently on my way back from VJ on a 36 an there's apparently this jam on the side of ECP which I'm in, so I thought instead of sleeping away, let's do a quick post.

Today was pretty slack, though quite new for most of us. Our GP teacher was on course so we were made to do a GP comprehension practice, which completely stunned most of us. The language proficiency and level of questions are really something. From asking the author's exposition to discussing language, punctuation and figurative devices, the questions stumped us to no end. However, I'm sort of glad I almost finished it, so not too much to do when I get back.

Econs lecture introduced us to the concept of opportunity cost and the production possibility curve, as well as the marginalization law. It left me half asleep for most of the lecture, but luckily I sat with Charis, Clarissa, Kenneth and Pearlyn so we managed to clarify some stuff together.

Oh and I just passed the accident site. A taxi was smashed really badly behind a car, and it took up 3 whole lanes, no wonder traffic was at a stalemate.

Oh and Clarissa is also campaigning for council. I hope she overcomes the difficulty within her group and emerge successful as I can really tell that she wants to serve the school. Alright time to just kick back in the bus :D

Daniel